What makes you go for it, What makes you stay, what makes you leave...

What makes you go for it, What makes you stay, what makes you leave...

At 1 time we are excited about a new job, new role, new hobby, new sports or even a new relationship. You have so much idea what that or which ever of these can get you to.

Getting a payout, that you never had before, the kind of experiences that you will get is even more rewarding. You travel on business trips, to places you never been before, meeting people of all levels. Managing them will becomes one of your new skill. You are in a leading MNC in the blooming industry.

You work hard & long hours, humble yourself to ask questions, just making sure that you learn everything of 2 lesson in just a time of 1, Always looking for opportunities just to outshine the others, taking as much or what ever task that was available or given to you.

Fatigue came, you were tired, but because you know what you want, you preserve, you can see the out coming results, a result that you assume every bit of them.

But months later, nothing changes, you think you become under paid, too much work, unappreciated you are. So familiar with the work flow, people and company culture, I shouldn’t be here you think. Looking in the papers, tidy up your resume, ready to proceed with project move on.

What is fear? - or Should i ask What is fear to you?

What is fear? - or Should i ask What is fear to you?

Spirits, Ghost, Psycho, Aliens, Werewolves Dracula and so many more are the most common fear factor any fiction, all these characters are made into interesting stories then movies and so on…

In those story, the victim usually encounter the characters with tremendous fear, most of the time being pursued or haunted by them.

Unknowingly there are side effects after watching such movies or reading such book. Readers bring themselves into the stories and believe that the characters are alive. These are all extreme cases I believe.

Some say that when we were young, we were braver, perhaps as we age, our experiences compile more practical fear to us, which make many living in different form of fear. So what is this fear? Someone having financial difficult, fear of the debts to come? Students that fear that they don’t do well, they will not get a good job, they can’t make money or even a living? Fear of disappointing someone? Or fear someone will disappoint you? Fear of others comments or fear of judgment of others? Fear being misunderstood, fear not being love. This is not something easily to recognize even if you did, you might not have the courage to overcome them. Look at it, how they come about? What fear really is? I ask and I ask, what is fear? I found so much kind of fear, but what is fear? I ask again. Go deeper, and you will understand, He says.

A friend told me, “ fear is a situation when you have no control over, or no knowledge about what is going to happen but subconsciously, you have a perception of something drastic or unpleasant will be the consequences... that set u into having fear over that situation.” These was her exact words, she is the only that responded to me.

So fear is something that you can’t control?

In fact it is something you control. Fear is usually choreograph by oneself, sometimes with the encouragement of another. Proposing a situation to happen is the birth of fear, many times it starts with a “What if”. The development continues when the details are being fixed in by the choreographer and the intensity level of fear is just like a knob to control your reading light, tune it to the right, you will be reading in the day, tune it to the other end, you get lost in darkness and in the story, then the story stops, therefore you even if the story will be different from what is choreograph, you cannot see it. And what you fear (no, you expect), were made to come to pass.

[Job 3:25-26]

“ What I feared has come upon me; what I dreaded has happened to me. I have no peace, no quietness; I have no rest, but only turmoil."

So what you fear? I see myself fall into this trap many times, because of this I procrastinate many things of my life, love, career, challenges, it is always the “what if” and “what if” that tries to make the decision. My friend who responded to me said that she was going through something and started thoughts about what fear is. I guess she is right, moments when you cannot think right and make a decision, it is time you think what fear really is. It happened to me, I ask for God wisdom in time like now. How about you?

He always does - what if He does not

He always does - what if He does not

I was reading an article send by a friend, I open it up yesterday and then close up after reading the few sentences, normally I do not have the patience to read unknown person’s journal or whatever, reading is just never my cup of tea (beside those that I really need some reference from, the only other book is the Holy bible, maybe) but I am glad this morning I open it up again .

As I read, the dam across my eyes begin to malfunction, tears just rush through my eyes even when I was resisting it. My office is packed with ladies, young or old, married or available, tall and short. It is not a scene or an image that Mr Cool wants to project.

Anyway the article speaks to me about the trust we have in God. I thank God for what I am now and really excited about my future, many times I just felt so much and thankful that God is always with me. No matter what I do. It is simple for me to speak out praises to Him. Just so many things I can thank Him about.

There was a moment of common thinking as the writer and I read on. What if God stop doing what He has been doing to you, what if He wants you to stop what you are doing now? What if He wants you to go through some trials?

Many left God because they go through trials, other left Him because they were drown in Him blessing and forgot Him. If I am not either if them, what will I be?

And you?

Isaiah 45:2-3(NIV) I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name.

v22- 23 (The Message) “I am God, the only God there is, the one and only. I promise in my own name: Every word out of my mouth does what it says. I never take back what I say. Everyone is going to end up kneeling before me.”